Certain things just give me such an unpleasant feeling. It's like a cross between a belly-ache and that sort of slightly elated state you're in when you're really excited about something. I absolutely hate it. It makes my hands go cold, for one thing, it makes it impossible to sit still, it makes me shake. I don't know, I can't really explain what it's doing to me. It's similar to that eerie feeling you get when you know someone's about to discover you've been lying to them. Or when you log on to the internet before you've checked all your messages (see my post from September 22 if you can be arsed). Well, I have that feeling now. And it's all due to someone sending me an e.mail. It's absolutely crazy, I've not been lying to this person, that's not it, I've not spoken to him for ages, I don't know... I really don't know why it's making me feel so utterly uneasy.
Apart from all this agony, I've decided to stop writing on my essay for the day, seeing as I've been at it since ten this morning. I'm hoping I might finish it tomorrow, but I don't know whether I'm optimistic or just plain stupid.
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